sometimes i really just wanted to disappear. i personally think that it would be too selfish for me about ending it all knowing the fact that i already made a lot of progress on my life and i don't want to make it seems like the people that surrounds me and stayed by my side didn't give me enough. it's just that, its too tiring to continue anymore. i already tried a lot of coping mechanisms just for me to escape reality and such, but i always go to the same conclusion where im just making a fool out of myself thinking that those were effective. i do not even know what im supposed to do anymore at this point. if only words were easier done than said haha. well, there's still a bit of me that keeps me active, and i hope this part of me can still hold me until i reach the day where ill finally rest on peacefully.