so im mixed but show more black characteristics such as my skin color and hair so i deal with racism occasionally than if i had shown more white characteristics with that being said my white grandma knowing of my past history of racism towards me thought it would be ok to not only call another person of color the n word but the n word with the hard r out of hatred which isnt her first time, but instead of js sitting there i decided to finally say something and she made me feel like i was wrong to feel some kind of disrespect. her reasoning and response was that the meaning of the word to her was ignorance and she used it as a “substitute” for the word ignorant but i feel that she couldve js said the word ignorant instead of taking the deep rooted hatred and racism that comes from the word and change it for her personal use to mean ignorant. that it self seems ignorant even tho it wasn’t towards me i still took offense to it, but idk if my feeling r valid bc it wasn’t directed at me