I literally can't sing well enough to do anything better than school choir, my voice is ruined now from past abuse, I'm not even a good actress to get in front of a camera because the second you look at me closer than 10 meters away, I'm disgusting. I'm just grateful the spotlight is bright enough to blur me out in the distance despite being a lead role. Why do I even go to theatre school I'm such a disgrace. In my hometown I'm 'amazing' but i know that the second I step past the gate of the town, everyone else is above me. I want to lock myself up, never talk to people again, and just paint. Maybe that was my true calling cause I'm too fucking ugly to be put in front of a camera.
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