I finally cried, so long after being strong I finally cried. Last semester during school I stopped crying because Everytime I did my brain will force me to stop crying after awhile and my personality changed, emotional numbness, I figured if I stop producing tears then maybe I can stop feeling numb, it worked just until I got memory issues, I felt really disconnected from the core of my brain and always felt disconnected, I spoke to some helpful strangers online and they said for me to cry when it actually gets hard or else it'll get worse, I finally cried and I felt great. I tried being strong for me and my family also but being strong is bad when you do it wrong, I felt peace in my mind for the first time in months, I really missed to cry. Thank the Lord I can produce tears lol, I survived