im so lazy to study and if i dont lock in i will lose my scholarship and fail year.Im in uni, no one in my family went to uni, my mom didnt even finish high school. She was lucky she found my father, he was great man, then he offed himself leaving my mom all alone with two kids. We were so poor but i never felt poor bc my mom would do anything for me. I also was very sick when i was kid and caused her much trouble, and i can't even repay her to study. Like uni is expensive we all know that. Idk whats wrong with me i love my mom sm but my laziness is bigger then my love for her.

I actually can't do this shit anymore I need to kill myself. And I almost did 4 times already but apparently I'm too much of a pussy

I don't wanna go to school anymore, my heart aches, I can't do this anymore, I'm so scared, and my step dad hates me, I can't do my routines in this state anymore. I can't search for help because it makes me look stupid