I actually can't do this shit anymore I need to kill myself. And I almost did 4 times already but apparently I'm too much of a pussy

I don't wanna go to school anymore, my heart aches, I can't do this anymore, I'm so scared, and my step dad hates me, I can't do my routines in this state anymore. I can't search for help because it makes me look stupid

I made a mistake, I got overwhelmed with everything going on. Put my problems in my diary, it was a very good place for my unhinged thoughts. Someone I trusted opened it, opened the pages I insulted them in. They violated my privacy, was extremely rude to me and my other loved ones. Most of that diary is about those rude times she had that I had to endure. Now I’m painted as the villain, the hidden mafia, the two-sided one. But everyone who cares about their loved ones very deeply, never slips up, also has this moment where they can’t take it anymore. - BigSisterSyndrome