I live in a one bed apartment with my Catholic family of 7. My parents sleep in the living room I sleep in the bedroom with 4 siblings. 3 are adults 1 of them is my brother who rped me when i was 7. My parents know it happened and forgave him because 'God forgave him.' I hafta sleep in the same room as him. He grabbed my hips at church and is sexually harassing me often. I cant talk to anyone as i am homeschooled and severely secluded from the outside, and escorted everywhere when in public. I am also very hypersexual, depressed, suicidal, self harming, and a lesbian. My family would think im disgusting if they knew and have already previously tried to 'fix' me. I have no one. No one. Im too scared of Hell to end it all because from birth, my parents beliefs have been pounded into my brain, adn doubts have been met with inducing fear, and consequenses. Whenever i try to have a mature conversation about it, i get introuble and told ill go to hell. Religious abuse. Im seventeen.