I feel so damn tired. Everything feels so much heavier. I don't know if I'll ever make it out alive. I have no life. I'm a very boring person, no social life, skills and talent. I wish I could go through a week let alone a day where I don't say I wanna die. I look at people and realize that I'm very different, that I don't fit in in this world. I just hate it and I'd cry everytime I think about it. I make a mess for everyone to deal with and I'm just a pain to all the people that I've met or been with. School is so hard, I'm a loner with nobody but myself, and I just can't bear the pressure and stress. Whenever I think about the future I'm paralyzed with fear and overwhelming dread because even now I'm struggling to even survive all of this. This life doesn't seem to be worth living, but I have to go on no matter what. Even if I'm holding onto a thread I need to survive.