perception is scary I get extremely nervous whenever I'm perceived or talked about. yes, everyone gets upset when they're talked about, but for me even in a positive light it makes me incredibly uncomfortable. whenever I connect with someone I just have this dread of 'shit another person I have to make forget about me' whenever I become friends with someone. I wish as soon as I stopped talking to someone they would just forget. of course tho, at the same time I get hurt when someone doesnt remember something about me, like my birthday or favorite food, I guess cause of sentiment? god people are weird