I'm on almost 10 months of no self harm, I feel so guilty for having thoughts of relapsing and doing it again every day, it makes my skin itch, my thoughts and urges run rampant in my head and I can't stop them, I'm not even keeping myself from doing it for me, I want to do it so badly, it's honestly all I can think about, but then I parents would scream and yell at me again, my mom might do it to herself, and my dad would blame me and tell me again and again how much of a terrible person I am and how again I'm just looking for attention and want everyone to suffer. I can imagine my therapists disappointment, thinking that it was only a matter of time, even now, everywhere, it almost tingles, my skin itches, god, why, is it my fault? Why can't I just stop, I hate myself so much, I hate doing it so much, and yet I miss doing it, I don't know what to do. I wish I could make the thoughts stop, god, please make it stop, I can't do this anymore, I want it to stop