hello :) Why am I so unlucky? My childhood wasn't good; I probably don't even remember a bit of it. My parents broke up, and my grandma stepped in as a mother and has been with me ever since. But my parents always work abroad. My older sister got pregnant and now has two kids. My dad had a stroke. I have hard feelings about him—I have my reasons—but I still hope he's okay. I've met a lot of friends whom I've considered family, but you can't bring everyone with you; some will leave and you'll be alone in the end, and that's reality. Okay, moving on, I know my dream and my passion: I want to be an architect or work in the arts field, like fine arts. but my mom wants me to take nursing, so i don't see myself in it, i always adjust, im fucking tired of everything, always on video calls, the noise in the house, my drunk uncle who's lazy and doesn't work properly. always encounter traffic even if i leave early. i'm tired, shit, like everything i do is just wrong. i want peace of mind.