Im really tired. I’m fine, everything’s going well in general, but I feel so numb and tired. I keep snapping at people, my friends are falling apart. I know change is going to happen, and im okay with it, but it’s so terrifying when two people you care for start to attack each other and I feel like i should be doing something. I want to talk to someone, to just share my thoughts for a moments, but im scared they’ll judge me and try to help, but for now I just need someone to listen to me. Sometimes I really want to sleep forever, cause that would be so nice. I felt like I was falling when I decided to do this, that I have to resort to this kind of stuff. I probably need help, maybe therapy, but the truth is by tomorrow, I’ll probably forget this happened.

Hi again. I never really wanted this life; I'm so tired, I promise. It feels like I have no choice in anything. I'm always strong, but I cry every single day.

hello :) Why am I so unlucky? My childhood wasn't good; I probably don't even remember a bit of it. My parents broke up, and my grandma stepped in as a mother and has been with me ever since. But my parents always work abroad. My older sister got pregnant and now has two kids. My dad had a stroke. I have hard feelings about him—I have my reasons—but I still hope he's okay. I've met a lot of friends whom I've considered family, but you can't bring everyone with you; some will leave and you'll be alone in the end, and that's reality. Okay, moving on, I know my dream and my passion: I want to be an architect or work in the arts field, like fine arts. but my mom wants me to take nursing, so i don't see myself in it, i always adjust, im fucking tired of everything, always on video calls, the noise in the house, my drunk uncle who's lazy and doesn't work properly. always encounter traffic even if i leave early. i'm tired, shit, like everything i do is just wrong. i want peace of mind.