i sometimes wonder if my friend would've considered staying/putting effort in our friendship if i bought her stuff. she always told me about how her other friends (who i didn't know) gave her things, whether it was a connection she made through one of them who she would then commission for vrchat avatars, or her e-boyfriend giving her loads of robux (everyone in this is an adult lmao). i could never afford to give her anything other than drawings, which she seemed to genuinely appreciate, despite my crappy skills. she even offered to buy me a microphone once when mine broke because she wanted us to be able to hear each other talk. everything was genuine and real, so i'm still in shock at how easily she dumped me and our other friends over a non-issue. i don't think i can ever get over how our friendship ended, especially after she completely dismissed my feelings. maybe it's because she's a whole adult that's immature and refused to talk. or that she's chronically online. maybe both.