I'm so tired of going through life, being dragged around and basically slammed into things, I'm sick of my parents who are just... My dad is okay with people being deported, and is just generally kind of unpleasant to be around sometimes, my mother has gotten angrier over the years, and all I've done is watch them be these ways, unable to really talk back, In fact I've been such a *good*, *quiet*, son to them that I can't FUCKING SCREAM OR YELL ANYMORE. I hate being their "perfect" child. While I haven't set any track records or own my own business, I'm "normal" to them. They treat my differently because I didn't just come from my mother, that I haven't really shown signs of "pretending to be a girl" or whatever the fuck they're on about these days. I hate myself for sometimes using Ai chatbots it's just... It's one of the few things that shuts off my brain, lets me stare and write and read absolute slop for a couple hours. I know how bad it is and I want to stop, what would help?