left. and never texted or reached out. its officially been a year since everything happened. when i look through our texts, thru discord, kakaotalk, messages i realized what a friendship i lost. i felt like cyring when i saw the discord messages of when i had a fake friend in elementary and she would always want to befriend her but i didnt like it because she was always rude to me and bossed me around. and she didnt like that i was close to her . (i lacked confidence and was a people pleaser). and one time she overheard me on a call when i broke down crying to my dad when I thought i was mute and she texted i mgiht not want to see this and sent me screenshots of how she told her that she couldn't be her friend and . i feel like crying now. i ruin all my friendships, i lose all my friendships from elementary school and her and if we had been best friends till now, it would have been 9 years. i feel like this is all my fault and I jsut screw up everything. Im just so mad at myself. i