I fucking hate people. And simultaneously wish i was dead. bigotry makes me want to kill myself and it lowk makes me want to bomb the whit house. I keep having these thoughts about hurting people and creating scenarios of characters monologuing about a person that loathe so damn much they seriously consider killing them and hiding the evidence. I keep creating scenarios of people hurting children and just absolutely scathing the abuser in front of people. I keep creating scenarios of venting to people and I cant see their faces. I do wish we were wipe out insantly like the dinosaurs before us. I do think I have a Heart, of some sort, it's jsut that, the heart doesnt have anything comfortable to express here. because people are nothing but terrifying, i might have to deal with someone who has a similar personally as any of my homophobic bitch asss "close" relatives. I dont people who would rather not hear my disturbed ranting close relatives, they are not worth listening to. (1/?)