I am just angry right now. Fuming. Angry at you. Angry at myself for even having an absolute loser like you in my mind. If you weren't attracted to me why did you marry me you piece of shit? I was the hottest woman in my class, other males were dying to sleep with me, multiple male friends tried to hit on me, kiss me, touch me, but I never let them, I was always fiercely loyal to you even when you refused any and all intimacy. All for you to go to Mexico and cheat on me with sex chats, OF, beating it to other women while I was in another room, spending $9000+ on them, while yelling at me for asking for a small trip to spend time with a piece of shit like you. I hope you die Josh, I hope karma comes for you tenfold, I hope everyone around you knows exactly what a piece of garbage you are. Broke, cheating, went to debt for lust. You are an absolutely disgusting, vile piece of shit who deserves to die alone, miserable. Your ADHD, therapy & spirituality are all deflections for who you are