I am a coward and I don't think I'll ever stop being one. My whole life fear and shame have kept me "safe" by preventing me from taking risks of my own accord. But I know in reality that all I've done is stifled and trapped myself. These feelings have been my way through life, my way of making myself more acceptable and easy to swallow, easy to love. I am so tried of feeling this way, but like I said I don't think I'll ever truly stop.