My boyfriend broke up with me and i just feel the worst I have ever been. Suicide and relapsing have been the only things on my mind. He was my only support and i cant tell him this now because i am scared he would feel forced to get back with me. At the same time I have no one else to talk to. He said we could still be friends but he seems like he does not want me to message him, which makes sense since we broke up like 2 days ago, though he says he still loves me. He only broke up with me because he thought I needed someone better and also because he is trying to figure out something about him and ca not do a relationship any longer. I do not know what to do, because I need to talk someone so i do not relapse or like kill myself, but he is the only one I feel comfortable talking to.