sometimes i just HATE being the nationality i was born with. And maybe that is the frustration from how bad the situation is, the fact that i've probably never had an emotional connection with, the fact i spent 22 big yrs of my life being an immigrant forced BACK into my motherland. the fact that its pent up frustration of not securing a job, not living the life i want and how sucess is not linear and I dont know what exactly i'm meant for and what i want to chase for. All i know for certain is to leave and always leave my motherland. i hate it being attached to a nationality that i feel foreign in. almost like i want to reject it. idk if this is a normal feeling or not but yeah