tw — sh, ed fucking hate life bro i hate this i hate this i've been clean for a month maybe, but i'm on my last nerve like goddamn it lately i've just thought about how nice it would be for me to end it and just be some poor girl that my class didn't know had that much on her plate i would mainly do it so my mom gets what she deserves. send out messages to my friends that it's her fault and that she abused me my whole life and for her to take me to a morgue and for them to tell her how bad I once harmed myself, how bad i starved myself ever since she called me fat then i would hope she kills herself too, because i know she has no friends or family apart from me and my dad. And my dad would leave her when this happens because of her. And once she gave her last breath she would wake up in the deepest pits of hell away from me and anyone who ever met her i don't have the balls to actually do it, i know that, but i guess 5th time is the charm, right? god i wish i'm able to move out soon.