felt like i blinked for a second but it was 17 minutes. maybe i really do dissociate from thinking about my trauma and have so many time gaps/amnesia or not remembering things my family just told me. ive always just assumed its me spacing out for way too long but i dont remember stressful events or conversations. like when a therapist yelled/snapped at me with my mom in the room i didnt remember it at all when she told me. it was a normal treatment plan update to me...i feel so shattered and feel like theres so many parts of myself i dont recognize or remember but i dont want to self diagnose with a dissociative disorder...they can put you in a psych ward way easier if thats the case even though I havent felt suicidal for years and only ever harmed myself by hair pulling when I was in abusive situations.