I hate how desperate I am.. So recently I met someone online who I share interests with.. I enjoy talking to them, yeah. But I feel like I'm trying too hard for them to "like" or "enyoy" my company. Ok so a bit of bg of myself, I'm not a very social person. I had severe social anxiety before(I still do, but it's not as bad anymore).. and this had a toll on my social life. I don't have anyone that I consider as an actual "friend", despite people thinking that we are. They don't even reach out to me outside of school, and only acknowledge my existence whenever they have a favor to ask/ something related to academics. I'm happy to help, but a simple "how are you", instead of "hey do you have a ____ for class ____, and asking about my interests would be enough. But idk.. nvm this I'm just being selfish again. Sigh,that online friend of mine doesn't even respond back at times,and our "friendship" feels like it's held on a thread. I'm fucking pathetic. This is so stupid.. I'm so stupid.