I HATE myself. I've been reflecting with my behavior, and emotions recently, and I just.. fucking hate myself. My life isn't even that bad. People have it harder than me, I know that. I'm not starving. I'm not homeless. I'm not living through a war. AND I just feel so SELFISH for feeling this way. Has my self isolation made its toll? FUCK I DON'T EVEN WANNA ISOLATE MYSELF BUT I JUST CAN'T HELP MYSELF.. IT'S LIKE A FUCKING ADDICTION, BUT THE FUNNY THING IS I DON'T EVEN DRINK, SMOKE, OR DO ANY SUBSTANCES. I'M EXHAUSTED WITH PEOPLES EXPECTATIONS OF ME. I HATE HOW I'M DEEMED AS SMART.. I HATE IT. I HATE HAVING TO GROW UP AS THE "GIFTED CHILD", CUZ NOW I'M REALLY BURNT OUT. I DON'T DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL, BUT I'M JUST FUCKING EXHAUSTED. I'M FUCKING EXHAUSTED WITH LIVING A LIFE THAT I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO BE BORN IN. I WISH I COULD JUST KILL MYSELF BUT I CAN'T BRING MYSELF TO DO THAT. What would my parents think. What would the people who "cared" for me think. I'm just pathetic.