Hi, Today, at this point of my life , i really feel very lonely , i have lost my dad , my mom and family always treats me badly. i dont blame them, they too are handling too much stress. i feel like i am an orphan in the world, i no more go to classes, i dont sleep properly, i dont do anything that i used to ace at, i am seeing my own downfall . i dont have a shoulder to cry upon, is this it? Everyday i feel like , will atleast today god take me away from this burden. this is not how i wanna live. i want to throw away all my possession to the world and leave this materialistic place for the sake of searching god. but i am stuck here, i am stuck with people who wants to suck my soul in the form of money. Money has become an inevitable search of human kind. i dont belong here. Everyday , i pray god to lessen this burden of pressure in various forms, like peer, family and society. i feel like i no more want to live. i want all this to be over . i want someone to save me from this.