Im so tired. I hate school so much, and i hate that that's such a cliche, like ik all teens hate school, but I don't know how to even put into words how I feel. I love my friends, but I hate them because I feel like they all secretly hate me and everyone i'm friends with. I like the subjects I've picked, but i hate the work I have to do because i'm so tired I can barely remember the date or year or who I'm talking to half the time. I hate how I still feel pain in my back and that it will never go away. I hate how my doctors and my mother refuse to believe me. i hate how i feel like no one is in my corner. i hate how i feel like i'm falling behind. I hate how i feel inferior to everyone and I hate how everyone feels superior to me. i hate how i can't seem to stop hating things and I hate how I can't get this itch that maybe life isn't worth all this. I just want peace, to reflect, to sit in my body and be neutral and calm, instead of loud and angry and sarcastic and really really scared