My mom always uses her ex or my siblings as an excuses she always argue with her bf and not to mention the guy who assaulted me lives in her basement i hate her and him I hate everything she told my dad that I'm a pig that doesn't help with my insecurities I've been losing my mind and she keeps trash talking my dad and not to mention I'm trans and my entire family is Christian I tried telling them I was bisexual but they got mad trying to tell me man is for woman and woman is for man I'm a FTM so my friends accepts me my bf isn't even aware and I'm scared For reaction I go by any pronouns but letter he/him I'm always anxious for some reason I had a mental breakdown in math on Wednesday cause I was stressed about to cry and had to ground myself I constantly stay up causing me to be tired I want to do my work but it feels like I want to burn what I need to do or I refuse to it that's how my body feels sometimes how do I function like a normal human being if I feel insane