So im venting here since ive been struggling with depression and sucidal ideation. But it's not like im always in a down mood or anything, but when it hits it REALLY REALLY hits. Like this week its just been going bad; failure after failure just keeps on coming. I feel like an absolute stupid failure. And since im a perfectionist the pain gets 100x more intense. Everyone i told this too (which has been a few btw) just said to "take it easy", BUT NO ONE GETS ITS NOT THAT EASY! This claws back every single time, you can't forget it since you literally have a heavy weight on your chest. And then everyday your reminded of people who are better than you and it just makes life for overwhelming. i cant even enjoy little moments since my brain always remember tis tempoary so i never really enjoy it. And today its been the worst ever, i feel the literal saying there's a weight on my chest. My mood has been low and down and....its just been so overwhelming.