{part 4} i still self harm i know have a nother attempt but this one nobody knows about as well as that iv started to get addicted to masturbating and i already had a stupid fricking break up with my boyfriend cus of his parents and that made me cry 5 hour the day and then 2 hours the next day and i already have a total of 125+ cuts on my upper theigh so fucking great!!! and he also blocked me on everything and said he dosent want contact with me anymore?!??!???!?!I cant handle being in a friend group we're I constantly feel third wheeled...I cant do this anymore my dad keep drinking and I wanna get out I cant stand living here anymore so body kill me....