I feel like I've been having a build-up of anger this year and a bit of the year previous. Im feel so complicated right now, like I'm so young and old at the same time. What I'm very conflicted on is my boyfriend. We have been together for one year and almost six months. The relationship has been weird, at least feels weird to me. When we got together he was a very low low person, talking negative all the time, always on something, not passionate for much, and being around him was draining and I never felt like I was also a friend instead of just a girlfriend. I moved to a different state in April, but november things started changing, for better but at the same time I dont know how to put it. Sometimes things are so nuanced and all the time put into it, things can get messy and contradict itself. Anyways since the beggining I had to beg him over and over again to not like thirst traps and pics of chicks. For months. I would think he would stop then it would happen again, but