i dont understand why it's so wrong for me as an afab to be into sex. ive struggled so much with shame and fear around it thinking even saying the slightest innapropriate thing is wrong and like i'm gonna get judged so hard for it. but like why????? having a convo with 2 male family members and sister in law and they start talking about how it was okay for them to get caught with porn, but me writing erotica is where the line was drawn. why??? ntm the fact that i didnt even want that to be brought up, because that wasnt a good time 4 me. but they demonized me while saying it was a rite of passage for a boy to watch graphic porn. im so tired. and on the same note im so tired of being described as someone who needs to be protected and watched over. i dont want to be viewed as someone who needs a man to put me in line. it makes me feel like less than a person. it's so backhanded for the same person who calls me strong and competent to also say i need a man bc im weak and defiant