I feel like I'm not qualified for love as a woman. Especially as a black girl and hearing that men don't like black girls is so painful. It's painful that every time I interact with a guy, I'm always assuming he doesn't like black girls, so ofc he wouldn't like me. I keep thinking about this everyday, I feel like that love and marriage isn't for me but I still crave it and I shouldn't but I can't stop it. I can't change how I think either, I'm just hoping that I die young.