I I am an ugly woman. When I grew up so many “ugly girls” looked like me, ginger, bulky, overweight, so when I was little I knew I was ugly. I was always the ugly girl in middle school as well. I was the “my friend likes you girl” or the “200 pound girl”. Highschool has been better for me, but if I don’t at least have mascara on I get terrified. I’ve tried to lose weight, but I never do, even when I count every last calorie, to my drinks and sauces, and exercise as much as I can for weeks, I never lose weight. So I just gave up. Sometimes I can’t even go outside because of how bad my anxiety gets due to my appearance. I know I shouldn’t care what other people think, but it’s hard not to when you hear them whisper about you. Whenever I take pictures with my friends, I always make a silly ugly face because if I don’t I’ll just look awkward and ugly. I’ll try again to lose weight, but I don’t have much hope.