I've managed to fail at everything I've ever set my mind to, love, school, relationships. My first kiss was magical, I got my hopes up way too high, but in the end she hadlost a bet and disappeared after our first date. Was it really that vague? Why was she able to read me like a magazine with no content? It seems like only I truly felt something. My second attempt with someone was almost the same, it seemed like a fairy tale, I gave her a birthday ring only to realize that nothing really seemed to matter when only one person cares, Abandoned, again. My grades used to be good, but now I barely reach the average. The only thing that seemed to make me stand out has just become another star in an uncountable universe. The harder I try, the more I see I have to improve. Are my mistakes that obvious to others? I just wanted to make others proud, that's all. I know there's no gain without pain, but does it have to hurt this much? I want to be better than yesterday, but tomorrow hurts a lot