I wish I could let silence happen in my friend group and not be insulted by it. There will be times where I will speak and it feels like no one is even interested in hearing my words and then later when they ask about why I don't speak, they are shocked. I do love them a lot, but when it comes to hobbies or things I like to enjoy, they seem disinterested yet continue to ask. You don't have to fake interest about something you don't care about, just be straight up about it. I can tell with all of them when they aren't interested pretty well. So why the hell do they try? It feels like mockery for my lone hobbies, whether its a game I like, a music genre I enjoy, a movie or show I like, its feel like a stab in the chest when you feign intrigue. I don't know, I'm just frustrated with my friends. I wish having friends was easier sometimes.