I am so frustrated by myself. Why am i like this. Ik what needs to be done and stuff but i cant do it. I hate myself. My social anxiety is crippling. I need to push myself so much to get basic things done. I hate this. I hate this. My family see’s me as a liability cuz i depend on them most of the times when i feel like i cant do it. This rant might even sound childish and stuff but idk what else to do. Also i hate how family is everything to me even when i dont have a great relationship with them. This is so toxic. Today i missed my bus for uni and booked a cab so that i can reach on time. My mom started being like thats not safe. I have heard so many cases blah blah blah. She would rather i go by bus. This scares me. I have been using the app for awhile and i haven’t had any bad experience yet. So i told her it would be safe but she still wont listen. She would rather i miss my bus. The same person who would let me marry a stranger but i cant even go in a cab alone?