I'm just one among many monsters that circulated around a certain area. Someone I criticized wanted their own redemption by bringing me down and I didn't think they knew as much. I didn't take into consideration the circumstances of those other people and what happened was infrequent, it was still not ethical for me to have done so. I've changed since, I changed out of necessity really. I'm fucked up with so many different things and I can't use mental health as an excuse. I wonder if I'm just sick. I always say it isn't necessarily me, I always blame my own circumstances. It's smug and conceited to think that I could distance myself from everyone, just complete detachment from the law as an image and rebellion against ever being called out. It doesn't work. If you're a sick fuck, you're punished for being a sick fuck. Otherwise you just elope to somewhere more primitive and forgiving. I daydream about getting away to a primitive place because I'm so sick. Others noticed, not just one.