Pt. 4 I kept looking at him but that just made me on the verge of tears. I missed the version of him before the trip, before the girl, before I felt jealous, before all that. But still, every time i looked at him, he was with her. I asked my self all possible questions out there. Are they together? Does he still like me? On the bus ride back to school, I sat next to my friends and I noticed he was sitting next to the girl. They were 2 seats behind me and I was just devastated. I started watching outer banks on my phone to distract myself. And this hurt more deeply because before everything happened last week he asked me if we could sit next to each other on the bus ride to the trip. But that didn’t happen because we were one of the last people to get on the bus and he ended up sitting next to his friend that was a boy and i ended up going in a different bus. We arrived at school, we went up the stairs and i saw, him and her walk together.