j, I miss you, and im really worried for you. I know I ruined it all, but you aren't okay, and you need someone. am I overcomplicating things? do you really not care? maybe you just need someone to talk to, and im the only one that's willing. you told me a couple days ago you wanted me to be the one that really knows you, but I don't know if that's true. you've been eating less, been on the verge of tears multiple times, leaving events early, not coming to hangouts, and overall being more depressed and suicidal. im so scared you're gonna try and hurt yourself. please stay for me. I know I don't have the right to ask for that, but I need you here, even if you hate me. I miss the love we had, and I regret everything I did to ruin us. please just tell me you'll be okay. im so worried about you I can't think of anything besides you. please just know I love you even if you don't love me. I need you in this world even if we don't speak. please talk to me. I love you - s