i’m so drained. every day i feel like shit, and i put a smile on my face because i don’t want people to worry. last night, i almost told my friends i was struggling. i wish i did. but i got a lump in my throat and i just couldn’t say it. every day i feel so depressed and then it takes a lot to get happy. if im happy, one little thing could go wrong and im back to feeling like shit. i don’t know how much longer i can keep going through this. i don’t enjoy talking to people anymore. i think i want it all to be over