I’m only 17 and I feel like my whole life is falling apart. It’s like I can’t do anything about it. I’m probably going to get kicked out of my school for my shit grades, my family has split up for good, I’m confused about my feeling’s, I’m going through a break up, I’ve recently relapsed after being clean for years, my dad might be on bad drugs, he’s always angry with me, I’m drinking every chance I get, I try to get better then I somehow end up worse, and I’m so empty inside. I genuinely have nothing here anymore, it’s like something is slowly taking every fucking thing from me. It’s gotten so bad I never want to get up. It’s disgusting, but I genuinely have to force myself to get in the shower. I can’t remember the last time I brushed my teeth. I’m always there for others, but when it comes to myself I decide to drown in all of my worries. I don’t even have a permit yet ffs. Why am I like this. Sorry for bad grammar or like spacing, I don’t really know how. My phone’s pretty old lol