I feel so stupid all the time lately. Im always crying and upset and I have no reason to be. I have a good life. I live in a good home with nice parents who are happy together. I have friends and I'm a straight A student. And yet I cry myself to sleep at least twice a week. I cry over anything and I feel so down all the time. I never want to get out bed or do anything. Everything feels so pointless. And it hurts even more that I dont feel like I deserve to feel this way. I know so many people who have it so much worse than me and they can get through the day without struggling like me. I feel so small and useless. I can barely even bring myself to take my medicine each morning. And then I go to school and act like everything is fine because I dont want to be vulnerable in front of anybody. Im so pathetic and miserable. Im so ugly when i cry and I cant even bring myself to dress nicely anymore. I just throw on some random shirt and baggy pants. I hate struggling to get through every day