5th Grade. 5TH GRADE was when i started to attempt. I WASN'T EVEN IN MIDDLE SCHOOL, they wont understand how much GRIEF and TRAUMA you have to get in order for you to try and commit at such a young age. Because no matter how much you think about it, THEY will be the reason why. THEY WILL FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHEN IM GONE. But not now, of course not now. because if i dont keep up THINGS WILL GET WORSE FOR ME. And all im asking for is to someone to love. but they cant even give me on what i ask for.