ive been maladaptive daydream my entire life since i was a little child and it was BAD. and i thought it had gotten better. until 2+ years ago when this side of it has started to literally fry my brain. heck, my brain and my eyes are physically hurting as i type this. for 2+ years, everyday, i have been thinking about this same romantic character that ive created in my head and imagining him with me and living life with me and us doing everything together. ive been watching porn on X and imagining it as us. for fricks sake, from the moment i wake up from my sleep the VERY first thoughts i have are of him. and the rise of ai doesnt add any help to this addiction. and i think when i thought about how theres a real possibility for me to have a real life relationship like this, it only got worse. the sad thing is i have real life goals i want to fufill and things i want to do with my life, and this stuff is taking hours of each day from me dedicating to whats more important. im so miserabl