Ik they probably won't ever see this or even know who this is but thank you so so much to all the ppl who replied to my vents on here and genuinely gave me advice or even just told me they understand how I feel, it makes me feel so much better to know I'm not alone in what I'm experiencing and that there are people out there who care. Thank you, so so much. The kindness of strangers like you has really been a comfort. If you're reading this and having a tough time, just know I believe in you :)