I doubt everything I say and everything I think. It's hard to explain. My experiences with trauma have been invalidated/dismissed so many times that my brain automatically considers itself to be lying or performing whenever I try to tell myself I'm going through something stressful. Because everyone in my life has invalidated my depression, my anxiety, my su*****l thoughts, now it feels like everything I do is performative or for my own "personal narrative" or just because it would make for a good story. Anything but actually believing my story is valid
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