Okay so I am 19, 12th pass and I do most of the stuff of my home. Like from cooking to even doing the office work of my mom ( she is pretty much dependent and I do most of the stuff), I have been taking every fucking decision by myself as my parents are fucking indecisive, I am the parentified daughter who id also responsible for the emotional stability of both my parents and my brother, I am anxious all the fucking time but I can't say it to anyone as they won't understand, I am too small to be anxious right? I am scared to speed money as my father is jobless and my mother doesn’t earn so much..I have studied all my life myself and I am a fucking topper. But I didn't prep for neet ( coz i didn't wanted my mom to spend lakhs )didn’t clear it ofc, took a drop and now everyone expects me to join a fucking local college. I DON'T WANT TO. THEY ARE CALLING ME EGOISTIC AND MEAN AND A BITCH. I LOVE THEM BUT I CAN'T. I WANT A GOOD COLLEGE. I CAN'T BREATHE SONETIMES.