Rant #1919

Already gave an ultimatum shouldn’t have to, been almost 5 years and every time I talk marriage he says it’s because I’m still “too immature” and he doesn’t know if he wants a permanent with someone who is immature. I am unemployed, mainly because I am slightly disabled, working on myself, I’m in the healing process. we live with my mother who puts a roof over me, I put a roof over him letting him stay in my house. He says I don’t do anything for him yet I drive him to work 1 hour there 1 hour back, sometimes he gets rides but I still have to wake to his schedule, I do all the shopping and make sure we have food, I don’t do laundry he does it on his days off and I make sure to keep the house clean. I don’t see my fault here.. I just want someone who I can marry, have a house with, and have little ones.. I’m halfway through 23 seeing old friends have a life I wish I could have. He won’t let us move out due to the state of the country right now but I feel like that’s not a good excuse..