The stress of my academics, my mother being in the hospital, and my girlfriend leaving me is more than I could hardly handle. This is too much stress for me to handle and everyday I wish at night that I'll just die in my sleep so I won't have to feel any pain anymore, the happiest parts of my days are when I'm asleep. All I do is rot in my bed and play games all day long, it feels like no one in my real life notices my pain. I've struggled with anxious attachment disorder for years now so losing my girlfriend and her just being my friend now is something I can barely handle I feel like I'm gonna pop due to the stress, I have only my parents in real life I struggle with autism and communicating with others so this is so hard. I can't even tell my mom cause I'm scared what she'd think about me being a lesbian, I know I need therapy but how would I ask or even tell anyone my trust for everyone is zero now. The person I love left me and I'm scared of my own parents, I can hardly take this.