I'm retaking a year of my education bc depression and anxiety fucked me up this year. I'm so angry at myself for letting it get to this point. I think the stress of the academic year flared up my anxiety or smth, every fucking lesson in class is just another panic attack and then I have to count down the minutes till I can get out of that fuckass classroom and finally breathe. While everyone around me is just glad the boring lesson's over. And eventually all of this just led to depression coz I feel absolutely worthless, I've deadass forgotten how to be a functioning human being within a silent setting. Worst of all, I have not told my siblings nor my friends about any of this so I just look like a failure in their eyes, who flunked the year for no reason. If this medication doesn't work for me it's over I swear.